Short Story – Barely Breathing

“Hi, baby. Sorry I’m late.”

Amber Montgomery crawled out from under the mountain of baby clothes she was folding and scowled at her husband. Late? Dinner was so cold Dr. Frankenstein couldn’t bring it back to life. The baby decided her food looked better on mommy than on her plate, and when Amber finally got Kaylee to bed, she spent half an hour cleaning up that disaster—by herself.

“I missed you.” Paul leaned over to kiss her cheek.

But Amber recoiled. “Where the hell have you been?”

“My last appointment wouldn’t stop talking, and by the time I got out of his office, traffic was a bitch. Did you hear about that accident on the interstate?”

“I didn’t have time to watch the news. I didn’t have time to eat dinner. I didn’t get a damn thing done today because your daughter decided she didn’t need a nap.”

Paul cringed. “Tough day, huh?” He retreated to the kitchen, wincing when he found the stone-cold remains of dinner.

Amber followed him. “Why didn’t you call me?”

“Battery died.” He held up his useless phone, showing her the black screen.

She snatched it from his hand and plugged it in. “I need to be able to call you. What if there was an emergency?”

“Did something happen?” His head popped up over the refrigerator door, his eyes worried.

“No.” Amber crossed her arms. “But if it did, you wouldn’t know.” She looked around the kitchen. Paul’s briefcase was lying on the counter, his coat tossed over a dining room chair. Everything was as it should be. Nothing extra…nothing special. “Do you know what day it is?”

“Um…Tuesday?” He looked at the calendar. “Yeah, Tuesday…all day.”

His adorable little boy smile wasn’t going to get him off the hook so easy. “It’s Valentine’s Day!”

“So that’s why you’re pissed. Shit, baby. I forgot.”

Amber forgot too until she checked the expiration date on an ancient container of sour cream, but she wasn’t going to tell him that. “When you were late coming home, I hoped you were getting me last-minute flowers or chocolate or at least a sappy card. But no, you walked in empty-handed.” She stomped to the dining room and grabbed the unused dishes, throwing clean silverware back in the drawer.

“I don’t see any flowers or cards for me.”

“You want flowers?”

“That’s not the point. You forgot too.”

She seized a plate and pondered throwing it at his head. “Yeah well, I’m too busy–”

“You’re busy?”

Amber gasped, her mouth falling open but words failed her. Paul’s eyes turned panicked, and he backed up a step when she grabbed another plate. “Don’t you even…do you have any idea…? I work—all day! I cook, I clean, I try to raise a baby and run a business—which, by the way—I missed a deadline for because Kaylee decided she didn’t need a nap today. I barely had time to apologize to my client.”

Paul held up his hands in surrender. “I’m sorry. I know you do a lot. I wasn’t thinking.”

“Damn right, you weren’t thinking.”

“But I’m busy too. They let a sales person go last week so I’m covering his territory and mine. I don’t know when—or if—they’re gonna hire someone new, and I can barely breathe as it is.”

Amber put the plate away and leaned against the cabinets. They were both overworked and overwhelmed, and she didn’t see a way to escape. Life—even the things she used to enjoy— smothered her like a musty old bathrobe. “Kaylee missed you.”

“I know. I missed her too. I’m gonna go kiss her good night.” He dashed up the stairs before she could warn him not to wake the baby up.

The dining room was clean when he got back. The laundry was folded and put away. The kitchen was dark, and Amber was sitting in the living room on the couch, flipping through channels with the remote. “Nothing good on.”

“She’s down for the count.” Paul stood in the hallway, bracing himself against the wall as if he was afraid to enter the room. “She’ll sleep all night.”

“Good.” She yawned and stretched, knowing he was watching. She used to love it when he looked at her like a starving man. His dark eyes glittered in the evening light, and he ran his long fingers through his black coffee hair. A tingle shot through her when she remembered how his hands felt on her skin, how his lean, hard body felt on top of hers. The fluttering desire disappeared too soon, replaced by an urgent need for sleep.

Paul sat down beside her, a charming smile on his sweet, dangerous lips. He took the remote from her hand and turned the TV off. “It’s not too late to do something.”

“Do what?”

“For Valentine’s Day. We can get dinner–”

“We’re never going to find a babysitter on such short notice.”

“We’ll order pizza. Open a bottle of wine, light a couple candles.”

She smiled and cuddled close to him. “That sounds nice.”

He wrapped his arms around her. “When was the last time we had sex?”

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Pinterest – The Dark Side

Reblogged from Janelle Jensen:

When I first heard of the new social sharing website, Pinterest, I admit it caught my interest.  How unique!  Here’s a website where we can share like interests and gather ideas in one convenient place.  A social bulletin board where we can learn even more about our friends. But then I started hearing about the darker side of Pinterest, specifically about their User Agreement.  Don’t get me wrong, I’m not a Pinterest-hater.  I still think it’s an interesting concept and can be done well. …

I have a Pinterest account, but after reading this I deleted all my pins. I wasn’t using it much anyway, and I mostly posted other indie authors books. I won’t contribute to copyright violators.
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Wrestling with my muse: Are all his ideas good ones?

My damn muse woke me up at 4:00 a.m. Actually it was 3:54. WTF? He told me the beginning of Her Twisted Pleasures was kinda dull. It didn’t arouse his dirty mind like it should, so he gave me an idea how to fix it: rearrange the stories.

The first story, A Good Slut, started like this: A summer vacation in the desert southwest sounded like a good idea when Will and I planned it during a cold Chicago blizzard, but when we crossed the border into Texas, the heat slammed into me like a brick wall. Good details, but it sounds like ‘how I spent my summer vacation.’ Who hasn’t heard that essay before?

I could move another story to first place, Breaking Rules. Will tells it later in the series, and he starts it with some provocative words, but they spoil the big reveal. Hmm….

It wouldn’t take much, just a simple cut and paste to make Twisted erupt like an overexcited honeymoon husband. But I wonder if my muse’s idea is the best one. I don’t want to waste my best stuff on the first shot. ;) Maybe all I need to do is write a stronger opening for A Good Slut: I never live with a guy because I like fucking him in a different bed every night.

That’s better, but I’m still not sure who’s right. I’ll know after it goes through beta reading. I still want one more reader. The first draft will be polished and ready for reading on 2/24. It’s just over 53,000 words, so if you’re interested in critiquing it, please let me know.

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Indies Unite for Joshua – How you can help

I should’ve written this post a couple weeks ago but I was afraid of it. I didn’t know how to write it without telling my own story, but my story doesn’t have a happy ending. I don’t like dealing with emotions, whether they’re mine or someone else’s. All I could think about was my bad experience. But I finally realized this story was not about me.

It’s about my friend Maxwell Cynn and his son, Joshua. Joshua has leukemia. Things were really scary in the beginning, but he’s undergoing chemo and his prognosis is good. His recovery will be long and expensive.

Max is an indie writer like me. He works hard for a little money. He has good health insurance, but as anyone who had dealt with cancer knows, insurance only goes so far. A group of indie writers are conducting a fundraising campaign to help cover some of Joshua’s medical expenses. Our goal is $10,000 and as I write this, we’ve raised over $2,500. Please check out Indies Unite for Joshua at Indie GoGo and follow the #IndiesUnite4Joshua hashtag on Twitter for updates. It’s a great way to make a donation or pick up some cool ebooks. I’m giving away each of my trashy ebooks and a signed print copy of END: An Apocalyptic Anthology.

Maybe the easiest way to help is to buy Max’s books. All the proceeds go to Joshua’s medical expenses. I’m reading Cybrgrrl. Computer geeks are sexy! ;)

If you can find a way to help, please do. Please share this post and others under the hastag #IndiesUnite4Joshua. It doesn’t take much time or money. Max and Joshua’s story deserves a happy ending. Thank you.

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Valentine’s treat from Trashy – new couples erotica!

My new couples’ erotica short story, Barely Breathing, is now available exclusively from BringBackDesire.com!

Here’s a taste of the Valentine’s goodness:

Dammit, how could he forget Valentine’s Day? He wanted to make it a good one this year. Take Amber out for dinner, buy her a little present, spoil her rotten and then get a hotel room where they could have privacy—and peace and quiet—so they could tear up the sheets like they used to before Kaylee was born. Paul loved his daughter. He wouldn’t trade her for the world, but damn if the little squirt didn’t bring his sex life to a grinding halt.

Amber sighed and stretched, her thighs rubbing against his crotch. That did it. Solid wood in half a second. New record. He leaned down and touched his lips against her ear. She gave him an encouraging moan so he kissed her cheek. She brushed his hand away and buried her face in his chest, dammit.

Paul groaned and smacked his head back against the couch, his hot little wife still curled in his lap, and the boner in his pants demanding attention. He needed to do something about it, but he’d be damned if he’d do it by himself—not on Valentine’s Day. “Hey baby.” His hand slid under her hair and he lifted her chin.

“Mmf.” Amber grunted and blinked at him.

He rolled her back against the couch, giving his wandering fingers easy access to her body. She braced unsteady hands on his chest. He grabbed one and pressed it against the bulge behind his zipper.

“What are you doing?” Amber woke up.

“I got a Valentine’s package for you.”

She laughed, squeezing his hardon. “Feels like a nice one.”

“Wanna unwrap it?” He nibbled her neck, dragging his tongue down her throat.

“I’m so tired.”

Yep. He knew that was coming, but this time he was ready for it. “I am too, but it’s Valentine’s Day, we’re alone, Kaylee’s sound asleep….”

“I should be too.” Amber pushed him away and sat up. “I have work to do tomorrow, and if she won’t nap again, I’m in trouble.” She stood and headed for the stairs, but Paul grabbed her hand and pulled her back.

“Amber, please.” He wasn’t above begging. “I need you.”

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Am I risking my readers?

Last weekend I got another great review for The Devil Made Me Do It. My erotic short story collection is becoming quite popular, and many of the reviews say the same thing. It’s romantic, playful, couples-oriented, and it makes the reader feel good (in more ways than one. ;) )

So as I’m revising and editing my new erotic short story collection, Her Twisted Pleasures, I wonder if it’s going to alienate my current readers. It’s as far from the romantic, fun, positive feel of Devil as I can get. It doesn’t fit the romance genre or any of its sub-categories. It’s true erotica. My characters lie and deceive each other and themselves. The sex scenes are often violent and sometimes dangerous. Everybody gets screwed (and not in a good way).

I wrote Devil at a time in my life when I was struggling with my sexual nature and trying to get in touch with my inner slut. Writing Devil helped me resolve my guilt conflicts and build confidence. Writing Twisted allowed me to explore the darker side of my imagination and probe my baser sexual desires.

But it won’t appeal to everyone. Let me put it this way: my mother-in-law is my biggest fan. She’s been reading trashy romance for 40 years, but I’m not going to tell her about Twisted. She likes traditional, happily-ever-after romance novels, so I don’t think she’ll appreciate the provocative storyline and non-traditional relationships. There’s no way in hell I’d ever let my mother read it.

I can and still do write feel good romance. (Shameless plug: check out my new erotic short story, Barely Breathing, on BringBackDesire.com!) I have plans for three real romance novels with my Twisted characters, but I had to torture them to make them ready for their true love. (See I am a romantic—a twisted romantic. ;) )

My question is this: will publishing Twisted lose the readers who love Devil or will it expose my writing to a whole new audience? I’m willing to take that risk. I hope you’ll gamble with me.

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Sunday Stories Blog Hop!

I posted my favorite deleted scene on the Sunday Stories Blog Hop.

Check it out for some naked that didn’t make the final edit.

 

 

 

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